The lyrics to this song is very inspiring. Anxiety is something that is very hard to overcome. Personally when I feel it, I feel Closterphobic. Sometimes feeling so bad that I just wish I could rip the skin off of me because I feel THAT Closterphobic. There are things called "Triggers" that will make your anxiety spark. They can be something so small or so big to trigger it. The first step is recognizing these triggers. Recognize them and then figure out what exactly calms you. For me there are only a few things that can calm me. Some people however know exactly what calms them and everything I okay, slowly but surely of course.
When you have anxiety you can feel very alone like the world is crashing in and no one understands you. That you could scream at the top of your lungs and not one single person will turn their head to see your having a attack. Just remember to breathe. Like Dory says in Finding Nemo, "Just keep swimming" That is true for when a attack is coming. Just keep breathing. Even though while your having one if feels like it will NEVER stop, it will. Just like the roller-coaster in life. Hold on, Don't give up, and just breathe.
For many years I was suppose to take a depression/anxiety pill. I did take it, for a few months or so. But I stopped. Why you may ask. I felt trapped because I had to rely on a "pill" to not get depressed and to not have attacks. Little did I realize that I was only truly trapping myself. I'm not a fan of taking pills to begin with because of my stomach issues but in the long run I was only making things worse. A depression pill won't make you happy. It will make things a little easier going, but you have to find things that make you happy. Now I'm not saying this is easy, because I know full well its not. But IT IS possible to make better. Trying to take control and "fix it" isn't a bad thing to do. But it can get horrible real fast. Because I stopped taking it nothing got better only worse. I have lost jobs, lost sight in myself, and effected relationships all because I trapped myself.
I now take depression/anxiety pills on a regular bases. Do I still have issues with my depression and anxiety? Yes. I do. But it does help it. Surround yourself with people who will help you when you need it. They may or may not understand what your going through. But sometimes talking about it really helps.
Anxiety is very much like the devil. All the devil wants to do is take over your life, and drag you down to his level. That is really what anxiety does too. I was clinically diagnosed with a Anxiety Disorder. That is pretty much where its a chronic issues. I have lived my life in this "issue". Don't do that!!! You are letting it in. Take control of your life again and do the things that will help you. It will get better in the end. You have to always remember that. I will have this problem the rest of my life, but I'm not going to let it control my life anymore.
Listening to "Wake Me Up" By Avicii
"I tried to carry the weight of the world, but I only have two hands"- that's exactly the part of the song I just heard. You can carry a certain amount but it is okay to stop and ask for help. That is so important, You will only ruin your life, LONG-TERM. I promise you this. Don't make the same mistake. Take life by the horns and YOU drive it and control it where it goes. Anxiety is one of the scariest feelings in the world to me, But because of it being so scary I'm not going to let it run my life. Again the issue will still be there but its okay. Everything will be okay. "This too shall pass"
Also, I'd like to thank my Husband for being by my side during my crazy anxiety attacks when he could be. Also I'd like to thank him for telling me over and over it is okay to take these pills. He tries to understand these issues and does, but sometimes it is hard for him to handle- But I'd like to thank him for trying and being there when no one else isn't. I don't give you enough credit. I couldn't do it without you. I love you.
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